No matter the case I make against God, the Scriptures or world ideas I use to make it, or the different reality I seek to create—nothing can separate me from His perfect love. He is always loving me, even when I cannot see it or don’t want to, or am sitting in the corner shaming myself for this sin or that sin, or hating everyone for hurting me. He still loves me, and that will never change.
I am not His puppet. God has given me free will, even with the knowledge that I may use that power to do wrong instead of right. He has given me that power because He created me to be free. Free people aren’t afraid of control, because they trust that they are free. I am free because I was created to be free.
Now that I know how much God loves me—sending His Son to be in the place for all of my sins and rising again to defeat death, sin, and shame—I want to walk in the light of trusting and obeying Him as a free child of light. I was once darkness, but now I am light in the LORD. I am able to live as a dearly loved child of Him. And I want to, what’s more. He is love. Perfect love casts out all fear, because He is love. Fear has to do with punishment. I was sick with the disease of punishing myself and others for not living up to the rules. That was the Old Covenant. I desire to live under the New Covenant, as a child of light. That means I can stop shaming myself, stop trying to not sin, and accept God’s love. I can’t fix myself. I can receive Jesus’ perfecting love within me in order to be free.
And I want freedom desperately.
God is good. And love.
With the LORD there is love, and with the LORD is full redemption.
I am sad that there have been many people who have professed to be Christians but have actually been living under the Old Covenant, and have hurt others. I was one of them. Praise Him, I am now free!
Please forgive! I forgive those who hurt me by withholding love from me. I am so thankful that I have not had what I’ve needed my entire life from those around me. None of them were meant to have met those needs, for they can only be met in Christ Jesus, under the New Covenant of Love.
Praise YHWH! Praise be to my Rock, to my God and Savior!
May my soul sing and glorify the LORD!
Let us sing and make music to the LORD!